Things have escalated really quickly, haven’t they? I don’t know what the situation is in your country, but the UK has gone into full lockdown today. I think most of us are in the stage of finding it surreal – unless we know somebody directly affected, of course, and then it’s all too real. I’ve not been outside my house and garden for a week, and the only human contact I’ve had has been virtual or (at a safe distance) with neighbours over the fence.
If you’re anything like me, you’ve probably had a few people say that you can finally read all your books -I’ve been saying it to people too. There’s definitely no shortage of books to read around the house. At a conservative estimate, I have over 1500 unread books.
And then there are the lists of books to read during lockdown, appearing in blogs and newspapers and so forth. They’re great, and Rachel has put together a wonderful list.
I hope you’re finding the lists helpful. I hope you are able to get down to some books you’ve been meaning to read.
But I’m writing this for the readers who are struggling to work out how to read at all.
I certainly have plenty of time to read, though I’ve also been having an unprecedented number of phone and video calls. But I am finding it difficult to read anything very much at the moment. I sit down with a pile, intending to change between them and have a nice evening of reading – and I’m only a few paragraphs in when I realise that I haven’t taken in anything. My mind, like all of our minds, is on coronavirus. About what the future looks like.
And it’s not just that. It’s the scary amount of choice, and the scary amount of time. Usually I grab something and read it on my lunch break, or after I come home from something, or for a few hours on a Saturday. Now I have seemingly endless time and seemingly endless options. It’s overwhelming.
I’m trying different things. I picked a light 1920s book. I picked non-fiction essays. I picked Pride and Prejudice. And I am getting through things, slowly. I’m even enjoying them – Lucy Gayheart, the Willa Cather I’m currently reading for the next episode of Tea or Books?, is brilliant. But it’s not coming easily.
And I wanted to share this to say – if you haven’t worked out how to read at this moment, that’s OK. It will probably come as we get used to this new normal. And if it doesn’t, that’s ok too. Your mind is doing all sorts of backflips and cartwheels. There’s no guilt if nothing is distracting you.
There’s also no guilt if you have to go to a pile of Agatha Christies, or re-read books you loved as a child, or only read magazines. If you’re not using this opportunity to read War and Peace, don’t worry. Reading can be a wonderful lifeline at the moment but if – like me – you’re finding it a lifeline that sometimes gives way, and you just need to watch Netflix for a bit, then know that I’m in the same boat. For now.